In Full Bloom Again

 

During the winter months this plant, my 50th Birthday present from last summer, didn´t do much. Even a lot of its leaves turned yellow in the beginning of this year. 
I kept on regularly watering it anyway - not sure what would happen in spring and summer.

Right now it is in full bloom again! 

I just wanted to start this blog with a nice picture of my own. Little did I know that it would become a life lesson presented by nature.

Thank you very much!

Keep on going anyway - no matter if you know what would happen in the end.

Most likely you will be rewarded with being in full bloom again when the time is right for it.

Sometimes I feel like only "regularly watering" is enough. And sometimes I am not capable of doing more than "regularly watering". 

Those are the difficult stages in my life.

Specially when I feel the urge of proceeding my journey deep inside. 

That makes me struggle a lot. Wanting so much, but can´t figure out the how.

Fortunately I figured out the importance of those stages over the last couple of months. 

The circle of life consists of times for growth and moving forward and of times for reflecting and pausing. Nature does that with its seasons. Why would it be different for us humans? We are part of nature, aren´t we? 

Fortunately I figured out that those times of pausing are anything else than wasted time. There is this quote which I know in German language:
"In der Ruhe liegt die Kraft."

"The Strength is to be found in Serenity."

I would even go a bit further. 

The Strength comes from believing and trusting in the journey itself. No matter what is going on at the moment, be sure that you are on the right path heading into the right direction! 

The weird thing is that I knew that in theory for a very long time already. Yet, I was not able to fully deal with it in real life. 
Or lets put it that way: I had no idea of how deep this theory really goes! 

Reflecting is a great chance to find out all these important things for our life journey.

I don´t think there is only one recipe. I don´t think there is only one perspective. But there is one thing everyone should do:
Take your time, listen to your inner voices and follow your own path. Create your own recipe. Make sure you have your own perspective. No matter what!

This is what I did ... practically all of my life. 

Never with the crowd first. Only if I was inspired by something and was ready to also adapt it into my life. Only if I decided it was good and supportive for me. Otherwise I didn´t care if "everyone else" did it or "you MUST do it" that way. 

When I write these things down I often sound like I want to preach or I might feel like I am the only one who found the key to happiness.

This is not true.

It is just that I found MY truth, my key to happiness. And that´s huge. That´s so damn mind-blowing sometimes. I really want to share it with others. Not to preach my truth ... but to inspire people to start searching for their truth.

Now let me tell you: this journey took some surprising turns so far. My truth didn´t instantly reveal itself. Maybe it would have. If I would have been more aware of the messages and the signs. 

But that´s the beauty of the journey itself. 

Make mistakes! Take some wrong turns and break down on the way when things are getting too much! Stand up, promise yourself to make it better next time, only to "fail" again. Who cares? Every bump in the road teaches you a lesson. Every obstacle shows you how it doesn´t work. Thank you very much!

It took me a while to gather all the information I need. And still every single day I get some new messages and signs. But those hints are already coming pretty clear. Probably because I have my antennas ready to receive them at all time. 

First I was searching for the answers only in the "wise" books. Then I found Energetic. Which was a great source for a lot of important questions I had. From there I went out to find my own answers for my personal questions. Once it were the feathers I found on my path which were the sign of making the right decisions or showing me: "You are protected. We are here to guide you." Then I became aware of my inner compass, the inner voices which were guiding me. (Still smiling about every beautiful feather which I find on my path.)  

At one point I started to trust the Bigger Plan. Not always and not fully. But the foundation of trust was laid. 

From there I went with the flow.

There are times for healing. Times for growing. Times for reflecting and being still for a while. Times for loosing myself and heading into the wrong direction ... only to learn when I was ready to learn. Times for inventory and some new orientation. 

At one point in my life I lost fear. 

I have no idea when it happened. But it happened. 

There are more topics which I dealt with, only to find out at one point they are not there anymore. Solved without even knowing they have been solved. 

Other topics stayed very stubborn. 

Anger for example. No matter how hard I try, I can´t get rid of my anger. 

I guess it is not the time to get rid of my anger. Maybe it is still serving me somehow. A couple of days ago I read something that I couldn´t forget anymore:

"Observing instead of absorbing" 

Isn´t that great?

Something that definitely would help me with my anger. Observing is something beautiful. And it is even more beautiful if you don´t absorb everything ... only the positive things. 

Right now I am receiving some really clear "instructions":

- forget the patterns from the past

- get out of your comfort zone 

- start fresh and head into new directions 

- follow the flow 

For me the mind-blowing thing is when I am dealing with something on my own ... only to open Facebook and find quotes about the exactly same topic in my feed. 

Or, like last time, ... I went to buy a new book and decided to choose without knowing what it´s about. Choosing only by the color of the cover or by how much I like the title of the book. I did that because I wanted to open my horizon, read something I usually would not read.

I ended up buying two books: 

"A Tree grows in Brooklyn" by Betty Smith 

and

"The Book of Why" by Nicholas Montemarano 

Two extremely different books ... and yet the both fit into my life as if someone had chosen them extra to support me on my journey.

And guess what?

Someone IS supporting me on my journey!

With everything that happens. With everything that drives me. With everything I think and feel. 

Thank you very much!

That´s the Beauty of Life!

Yesterday a friend wrote in his chat: "Life is cruel sometimes."

I don´t agree with that anymore. 

Life is not cruel. Life sometimes is challenging, yes. And sometimes it takes a lot from us. But not to be cruel. Only to teach us a lesson or give us the opportunity to grow and to prove ourselves. 

Yesterday I read the question in a friend´s Facebook post: "If someone hands you over a box which contains everything you ever lost in your life. What would be the first thing you were looking for when you open it?" 

I thought about that for a while.

But I couldn´t come up with one single thing!

Why?
Because I believe in a higher reason for everything that happens. Everything that has to go, will go. Everything that belongs to us, will stay.

Somebody wrote underneath it: "My mother and my father."

We do not loose our mother and our father ... 

They are on their journey. 

Something I want to share with you:
Be aware of everything that affects you in any shape or form and look at it very carefully. No matter if it makes you happy or sad or angry. Everything important for you and for your life journey will appear, will show itself. 

Everything that "crawls under your skin" is something you need to focus on. 

Those are the messages.

Those are the signs.

That´s how Universe, God, the source ... or however you want to call IT ... communicates with you. 
Don´t waste the chance of information. 

Receive what is there for you to find the key to your happiness. 

Thank you, Universe.

Pilamayaye Wakan Tanka.