Everything you need is within your own heart space

My first day into a week of vacation and I am happy it was raining during the day.

Not that I needed an excuse for staying at home and doing nothing ... but with a bit of rain it was kind of justified. 

So, instead of getting up pretty early and get active, I slept long, made myself breakfast and put myself onto the couch, reading a chick flick - till it was time to take an afternoon nap.

Only in the evening I got a bit active and I even headed out to have dinner in one of my favorite restaurants.  

I do love days without any plans!

Do what ever I want or don´t do anything at all. Nothing to think about, nothing to be fitted into the day. Just space. Enough space for everything that would come up.

Some time ago I received a message which stuck with me:

"Everything you need is within your own heart space." 

Love that message!

And it also made me think of something that also stuck with me since a long time already. Maybe it´s time to spill it out and let it go. Would love if that could be happening.

When I started my spiritual awakening I met that amazing person who did answer so many of my life questions. She introduced me to Energetic. She brought meaning to what I felt and thought at that time. It was such a healing time when all of a sudden I found out that what I felt and believed was not only okay but even special.

My personal journey became so much easier once I knew about not being alone with what was going on inside me.

We became friends.

Now, the thing with me is, that in everything I learn and everything I receive I need to make sure it fits with my own personal needs. Energetic helped me a lot and I will always be grateful for their principles. They gave me a new view and a new insight in life. They gave me the opportunity to grow on a different level of understanding.

Though not everything my friend told me was right with or for me. 

That´s okay. We are individuals. We need to figure out our own path. Just get inspired by many things and filter what is right for yourself. 

Unfortunately we reached a point in our joined journey where it didn´t feel right anymore. 

I guess we grew apart.  

That´s okay. That´s life, right? Happened before, will happen in the future. Some people accompany us just for a short period in life.   

Only it was one sentence she said to me which stuck with me and which hurt me ever since:

"It´s so hard to deal with you because you so live inside yourself."

Well that´s true. I AM living inside myself. I need to live inside myself. For a Highly Sensitive Person it´s essential to deal with the inner world first to be able to deal with the outer world. 

That was not what hurt me. 

That was nothing new at all.

What hurt me was that she criticized me for something that is essential for me. 

So, this sentence stuck with me for years. It pops up from time to time and I mull it over for a bit. Sometimes it makes me sad. Sometimes I really get angry about it. Why, for heaven´s sake, was that a problem in our friendship? Is it not people who are into Energetic and Spirituality who should understand a person who need to deal with her own inner world?

Apparently not.

That sentence got less powerful the more I understood about me being highly sensitive. Because one lesson I´ve learned from a very young age: 
There is a huge complexity going on within me and it is not easy to make myself understand. 

Luckily I got better in making myself understand!

Most of all because I got more and more comfortable about who and how I am. Today I am proud of being a HSP. Today I am so grateful to be a HSP! For all the opportunities and chances I have. For my colorful life, for my deep thoughts. 

And I am so very thankful for being able to receive the right messages at the very right moment when I need them the most.

"Everything you need is within your own heart space."

That´s a soothing and relaxing thought, isn´t it?

And you know what? 

A damn right thought as well!

We all are connected to the "source". Call it God, call it Universe, call it what ever you want to call it. There is this universal energy which is our life cord and our connection to everything. No matter if we are aware of it or not, it is there.

For a long time I believed I belong to the lucky ones who are able to feel that connection. 

But that is not true.

Every personal journey is as awoke as it must be. 

Every one of us is here on her or his own personal journey - exactly where she or he must be. 

My journey is an intense one. That´s a fact.

Though I am not sure where I am on that journey. Am I at the beginning or am I already an advanced traveler? 

Not that it would be important to know. I am just curious. 

What really important is though:

To be aware of where we are is exactly the right place we are meant to be. 

There is no need to actively trying to improve our life. For sure not with force and control.

Everything that has to happen will happen. 

We just need to be open and aware of that.

And we need to leave enough space in our life to let everything happen that needs to happen.

Not planning ahead, not filling every day with a strict program, being flexible for what the day brings along and ...

Everything you need is within your own heart space.