The Over All Jigsaw Puzzle

The most difficult thing is to explain what is going on right now.

I mean, I exactly know what IS going on. It´s just that it is so hard to put it into words – on the paper. The words are there. Believe me. Many and many words are there in my head. I just need to sort them out. But ... where to even start with?

Fact is everything that´s happening right now is happening at the right moment. Not too early, not too late. Just right on time.

Another fact is everything that´s happening right now always was meant to happen.

Fact is also everything that´s happening right now was announced by Universe. There was this feeling since the end of last year that something big is around the corner.

And – last but not least – there is definitely the fact that everything that is happening right now is the result of everything that was happening before – in this life but also in previous lives and between them.

As I always have been keeping an eye on my life, my wellbeing and my inner world, I exactly know what is going on. When I try to explain the whole thing to myself I always try to find examples to paint the picture as best as possible.

So here is the “over all” picture:

My life – as probably the life of most other people – is like a huge jigsaw puzzle ... without knowing what the final picture will look like.

In the beginning you only have a heap of pieces. A lot of different shaped pieces, one side coloured, the other side blank. 

So what you do first is to sort them out: turn them all over to the coloured side and separate the pieces for the edge from everything else.

That´s tiring and boring. It takes a lot of time and it is no fun at all. You rather would love to dig in and start building the puzzle. Only very soon you find out that this is absolute not making any sense. Where to even start with? First you have to sort the pieces out before you even can think of starting ... somewhere.

So in the beginning it´s hard work and it takes a while till you figure out where the journey is going to.

Then the moment comes when you are able to place the first pieces. You probably start to work on the edge first. There are the four corner pieces and you take it from there. Shape and colour helps you to find the right pieces. When the edge is done you get the first impression of how big the whole thing will become when it´s done.

Now you decide of how to take it from there.

Again shapes and colours are helping a lot. But in the beginning it will be like searching for the needle in the haystack. A lot of trying, a lot of searching for a specific piece with that right shade of colour and this funny looking shape which should be easy to find among the thousands of pieces. How often will you think you´ve found it but it would not fit?

Patience is important and you should never forget about the big picture, the outcome of your effort. 

This is what you are doing for a long time. Some days it goes really smoothly and you make some progress. Other days you don´t even find one fitting piece! 

But you never give up. Yes, you are frustrated and bored and angry sometimes, most of the time. But also somehow convinced that you are able to do it. Because there is this inner voice telling you: “Keep going. You can do that. Don´t give up!”

At one point, when you´ve put enough pieces in place, you would be able to make out some parts of the picture already. Ah, this is becoming a tree. And there are some faces and a beautiful house in the background. A red car in that corner. 

Now you are not only searching for colours and fitting shapes but also for branches and body parts and a roof, windows, doors. 

That´s the moment when working on the jigsaw puzzle becomes real fun. You are getting more exciting and you can´t wait to finish it. 

I guess the biggest break through is when you were able to put enough pieces in place to get a clear idea of what is shown in the Big Picture.

And there will be times when you watch what you already did and you will find single pieces in the already finished areas and you will think: “Ah, you little piece of shit. You gave me such a hard time and it took me weeks and months to find you in the heap. But look at you now. How perfectly you fit into the picture. Never would have guessed that.”

Every little segment is making sense at last! Not finished yet, still a long way to go, but you already get an idea about the beauty of the picture. 

There is no doubt anymore of how beautiful the Big Picture will be as soon as it will be finished. 

And then there is this overwhelming moment when you realize that it doesn´t really matter to finish the puzzle at all. Working on it, putting pieces in place and enjoy the journey IS the real goal about it!

And that is the moment where I am right now!

Does that make any sense to you?