The 3 remaining Heart Wishes

Throughout my life I had several big and small Heart Wishes.

There was, for example, my dream to visit Petra in Jordan one day. 

Whenever I visited my brother, sooner or later, we would take out his huge photo book "100 Places to visit before you die" and we would skip through the pages ... till we reach the picture of the Treasure House built into the red stone of Jordan´s dessert. 
"One day", I always sighed deeply, "one day I will stand exactly there in front of this amazing building!"

Well, it happened on October 26th, 2006. And I sobbed like a child because I was so overwhelmed by the beauty of the place.

Another example for a smaller Heart Wish would be me wanting to go on a pedal boat. 

I call it smaller because that´s something not so hard to do, right?

There are several lakes in Austria where you can rent a pedal boat. Most people have done that when they were children.

Not me.

I just always talked about wanting to do it one day. 

So I also did when my colleagues and me spent a weekend at Neusiedler See in the very East of Austria. When one of my colleagues said: 

"If you want to rent a pedal boat today I would come with you."

And that was when this Heart Wish came true.
It was special to me cause though it really is a simple thing to do, I would never have done it alone. There is no fun to go on a pedal boat alone.
So this special colleague made my day by joining me and making my dream come true. 

One of my most favorite story of a Heart Wish coming true happend back when I was working in the baby and children´s department of a huge clothing brand.

There were several branches all over Austria. The two flag stores were in Linz, Upper Austria, and in Innsbruck, Tyrol. 

I knew the team leaders of the other stores just by writing faxes (it was before the time of mainstream internet) or making calls to them when I needed something from their store. 

And it was the team leader of the store in Innsbruck I "fell in love with". Since my early childhood I love Tyrol, it´s mountains and the dialect of that particular area of Austria. So I´ve always been very excited when I had to call them or when "Shop Innsbruck" showed up on the mobile when it rang.

Though I never ever saw a picture of this particular team leader I so liked his deep voice and his Tyrol dialect, which he already spoke although he was German. My colleagues, my boss and even my manager knew about me having "a crush" on the team leader in Tyrol. 

At one point I was to become a team leader myself and my manager supported me enormously on that path. It was a very important time in my life. The two shops in my area (I´ve worked in both) where closing down, we all were to loose our jobs. But I´ve been asked if I would be interested to join the company longer in a new, huge store in Graz, the capitol of Styria. I felt honored, I was excited and I loved the fact that my manager not only liked me but trusted me enough to become team leader of the baby and children´s department in the new store in Austria, which was to become the second biggest store in Austria.

The plan was for me to join the new crew for the setting up and the first weeks of the opening period in the brand new store. After that I was to receive a three months training in the flag store in Linz, which was specialized for all kind of trainings. 

But one day my manager took me aside with a huge grin on her face:

"What would you say if I´ll send you for your training to Innsbruck instead of Linz?"

What I would say?
I didn´t say anything ... but I was cheering and dancing around and jumping up and down ... and before I broke down in tears I gave her a huge hug.

I went to Innsbruck to complete my team leader training with my favorite team leader. He taught me a lot and I worked my ass off. I loved every minute!

And there is - of course - my biggest Heart Dream of all times which came true on November 25, 2013:

My emigration to Malta.

Since my first vacation by the sea in 1989 I dreamed of leaving Austria to live by the sea, in the South, in eternal summer.

This has been my deepest and urging longing for 24 years!

One or two times I came really close to take this step but it never happened. 

Until the time was right and everything happend that fast and smooth I didn´t even realize what was going on.

I do remember me sitting on that plane on November 25th, 2013 - and somewhere over Italy it finally hit me: 

This is your One-Way-Ticket Flight you were dreaming of all of your adult life!

Life taught me that everything is happening exactly at the right time ... and only if it is really supposed to happen.

Cause I also dreamed of visiting Taj Mahal and of skydiving for a while. 

Those "dreams" obviously where not really from the heart cause they never happened and they are not on my mind anymore.

On the other hand there are these three Heart Whishes which are always on my mind. Three long kept wishes, three very important wishes ... maybe the three most important wishes of my life.

Unfortunately I have a feeling of them not coming true in this my actual life.

I know, I know ... energetically this is the worst thing to say. Because one has to manifest her wishes for them to come true. But what can I do? I can´t lie to myself, can I?

So, please let me try to manifest them while writing them down and sending them out to you and to Universe:

The first Heart Wish I already mentioned in my last blog:

I wish to write a book one day.

I want to publish a book, find it on the shelf in the book shops and be able to travel and to read to people all over the world. 

The second Heart Wish is coming from the very dept of my soul:

I wish to travel to South Dakota one day and be with the Lakota.

Now maybe you would say: "This is an easy thing to do. Book a ticket, go to America."

Not that easy.

And I don´t mean the actual situation of Corona virus. 

Travel to South Dakota and be with the Lakota doesn´t mean to book a flight to Rapid City and a room in one of the vacation resorts on one of the reservations. I don´t wanna go there as a tourist and for sure not as a "Wannabe".

My biggest fear is that I would not be able to explain how deeply connected I felt with Native Americans since I was a toddler. 

And last but not least, my third Heart Wish, probably the most important one, as it is the goal of my life since I can think:

I want to find True Love.

The most important one is also the most utopian one. 

Though I already made some progress in the last decades of this actual life. I found out what I DON`T want. Which is very important. I´ve also learned there are different kinds of True Love. It is not only about meeting The One and this special, romantic love.

There is also:

self love

unconditional love

the pure love for Mother Earth, Nature, plants, animals and all living beings 

the "platonic" love for our soul people 

the "one sided" love, where you love someone with all your heart and it´s totally okay when this person does not return the same feelings 

See, those three Heart Wishes are still remaining.

And they will come true when they are supposed to come true. If not in this actual life, then for sure in one of the next lives. 

To end this blog I will tell you about another Heart Wish which came true. One that blew my mind, because I couldn´t imagine for it to come true at all!

I am in love with the movie "The Last of the Mohicans". The one from 1992, with Daniel Day-Lewis, Russel Means and Wes Studi. 

As child I´ve watched it with my dad several times. Later I bought the DVD, which is still with me. I´ve watched the movie over and over again. And there is one scene I love that much, I rewind it over and over when I watch the movie. It´s the saddest scene of the movie but it is Wes Studi who amaze me every time I watch it. 
Do you remember him in this movie?

This is exactly the scene I am talking of!

Without saying one word, only with his mimic and gesture, he showed he cared for the girl. He showed he is not bad through and through, but do have a good heart.

"He should get an Oscar for this scene and I wish I am able to tell him how much I love him in this movie!"

That´s what I always thought when I watched "The Last of the Mohicans" again. 

A couple of year ago Wes Studi posted a picture on Facebook of him running into the actor who played his enemy in that movie.  
My chance had come!
"Mr Studi, I so love you as Magua. Specially in this one scene at the cliff."

Something like this I posted beneath the picture. I was excited cause now I was able to tell him. No matter if he would read it or not.
I´ve got an comment to my post from a woman: "Yeah, he was so sexy!!"
I rolled my eyes and commented back:
"Well, it was not about him being sexy. It was about him making believe without one word that he has a good heart and is not bad through and through. Only with his mimic and gesture he was able to express he cared for the girl."

To this post I received a "Like it" from ... Wes Studi!!!!!

WOW!

I was so thrilled!! He read it! My message was delivered! My Heart Dream came true!

But that´s not all!
A while later Mr. Wes Studi received his Oscar, an Honorary Award!!

The second Heart Wish about Wes Studi also came true!
I was crying and I am crying again when I think of how much I wished that to happen!
I was so happy, I had to text him! 
 

Wes Studi

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05.06.19, 16:46

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Dear Mr Studi, Please let me tell you something about Heart Wishes! I LOVE you in The Last of the Mohicans. Specially for this one scene on the cliff when you wanted to convince the girl not to jump. All those expressions in your face! Without one word you said so much! I watched this scene over and over and over. I wanted to tell you so badly how you deserve an Oscar for that ... A couple of years ago I commented one of your posts here on Facebook and I cried out of joy when you liked my comment! My message was delivered! Now I sit here and again cry out of joy ... cause now you even got the Oscar!!! The real HEART WISHES always come true! Congratulations, you deserve it so much! Best regards Ursula

He received the Oscar.
I was able to tell him how much I wanted that to happen.

I was able to tell him how much I love his performance in that movie.

And ...